Well, 2012 has finished, it was not the best year I have had, but hopefully 2013 will be better, but I am not holding my breath.
As the new year came to an end, we celebrated it by sitting in bed, one reading and one playing pool on an iPad, with only a few seconds to go we sat and watched the London fireworks and then fell asleep, new years day we were supposed to go to Andy's other brothers, but through illness this was called off, shame as we were looking forward to it.
Instead, we invited Mary, Andy's mum, over for the day, we had a good day, just chilled and watched telly, how easy is that, no stress or hassle, mind you the telly was crap, but then this Christmas has not been that good for TV programmes, at least Dr Who was the highlight for me.
As each day passes i feel that my life is ebbing away, just waiting for the next Dr's visit or hospital appointment, I want to get out of this rut but it is not easy to do, unfortunately my mental state is not the best, and i am having my last mental nurse visit today, I will state that my nurse is not mental, but that's what i call it, her name is Fredericka, sometimes i fell that she does not know what she is doing, she spends most of the time talking about what we will do next time, and then next time we dont do it... grrrrr.
like I said, today is my last one with her, but apparently she is going to put me forward for a more in depth therapy, I am not sure about how I feel about that, we will have to see, I can keep having my "moments" (my term for feeling low or depressed), they have been quite heavy lately.
I know that i must do all I can to help myself, and I am actively trying, I have purchased a book, WOW, I hear you all say..LOL.. but it is a special diet book, as I know i need to lose some weight, and this, I hope, will help, or maybe a few days of novovirus will help me :-), once i can start to lose weight hopefully this will ease the pain in my hips and back, however the arthritis in my hips wont go away but it might ease a bit, as for my back, hopefully the Dr will get me some one on one physio training to help there.
One highlight of the last few days is we have decided where we would like to go on our "cheapie" holiday, we just need to get the tokens from The Sun newspaper, we have taken one of these every year for years, and always take Mary with us, this year, hopefully, we can get the holiday park in Scotland, as Andy wants to visit the Concorde, Britannia and Edinburgh castle, so fingers crossed once we get the code words we can book and get it.
Time to close now, took my pills about an hour ago and I feel very weird, head is swimming and eyes are a bit weird, anyway, chat soon....
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