Back in 2011 when my back was really painful and I first went off sick, I was not To know what would happen over the next two years as time went on and things became more painful and more doctors visits more hospital visits more specialist visits and more pain and I just thought there would never be an end to all the pain that I was in.
It was while I was having tests and scans for my back pain that they found I had arthritis in both my hips with the left one slightly worse than the right, I was knocked by this as I had no idea at all that I was suffering from any sort of pain in the hips mainly because my painkillers would cover this up, but now the pain killers do not cover the pain.
As time progressed I started gaining pain in my jaw when my mouth would fail to open fully and it would click and snap, again after tests they find that I had arthritis in my jaw, again another shock, And more to the point how would it affect the way that I eat and would I ever be able to eat chocolate again, I had no increase or change of medication for the issues in my jaw I have just had to put up with it and live with the issue, but at least I can still eat my chocolate.
Then came the sleep issues and After spending some time at Papworth hospital they diagnosed sleep apnoea so now I have to wear a mask every night helping me breathe as they found that I was stopping breathing numerous times throughout the night this is a horrible machine and I absolutely hate wearing it However I have managed the last three or four weeks without it as I have had a bit of a cold and that machine did not help with the cold at all but I know I will have to go back to wearing a machine any day now and I'm really not looking forward to it.
I thought my issues Had come to ahead and the ones I had was it and I would have to live with the main issues for the rest of my life but no, it continues and I started getting pains in my shoulders and I started to notice that I couldn't lift my left arm above the shoulder and then in some cases I had to support the arm when doing various things, as time went on both shoulders became extremely painful and again I was nagged into mentioning it to the doctor when I next went I did this and after taking a large amount of blood I was Greeted with the report that both my shoulders have also got arthritis I wasn't totally surprised however it really did not reefer six and along with the other aches and pains it has not helped my depression one little bit and sometimes I sit and just wonder why I bother.
I've visited my mental nurse as I call her either once a week or every two weeks dependent on whether she has more important things to be doing and I know that sounds harsh but when she tells me why I can't see at the following week they seem really pathetic excuses but I digress, when I visit her, I come away feeling Confused and wondering what on earth I was doing sitting there for the last hour because she just says the same thing week in week out without actually get ting to the root cause of why I feel the way I do and that really does anger me to the point that I just want to scream at her but I'm too much of a gentleman to do that.
My visit to Addenbrookes starts next month which is four days a week for three weeks and hopefully within that period they will teach me how to manage the pain and just live with it so hopefully after which my doctor will then sign me back to work and then I can start looking for another job it looks as though I will not be able to go back to my previous Job as they seem to be going through a Raft of either redundancies or moving around either way that cutting back on the management teams in most of the sites so it doesn't look as though I will be able to go back even though the staff are still asking me to go back which I would dearly love to do anyway that's me for another few weeks I'll probably blog again during the visit to Addenbrooks, to let you know what's going on there.
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