More medical updates and the usual misery

It has been a while Since I last sat here and had some random thoughts about how I am feeling, and how things are going.

After my last visit to the Dr and a 20 minutes chat, (sorry to the rest of the queue), Mind you we never have less than 15 minutes, which is great, time to be able to say what you want and how you are feeling, anyway, I digress, after this visit I had my anti depressants raised again, and had more blood taken to compare against the last lot.

The last batch of blood tests showed a few issues, my thyroid was very under performing, on the boarder of type 2 diabetes, my good cholesterol is nearly non existent, and lastly my liver function, again, I have been good though I lost a couple of kilo's, and I only drink water, nothing else, well apart from milk in my cereal, so at least there was a good thing to happen after my visit.

Then, a couple of days ago i had a call from the pain clinic at Addenbrooks, it looks as though they are foisting me off onto another department, I think they have given up on me, that's what it sounded like when I asked the nurse, anyway,  this one will be more physio based with psychological as well as physical help given, it will be an intensive treatment, six hours a day, four days a week for three weeks, as long as I fit within their guidelines, which apparently I do, I just need to wait until I hear from them.

Today I went to Papworth hospital for my regular two appointment check, today I collect the monitor, to use over night, and tomorrow I go for the results, and to have my night breathing machine checked over, I am still having dreadful nights sleep, I lost count of the times I woke up last night.

I have been getting weaker in the legs and arms more and more recently, and I struggle to get up out of the chair, bed or car, I feel as though once i start to get up my legs just want to give way, it is a horrible feeling and not one I would want anyone to have, I try to do some exercise, but I get so tired and out of breath when I do anything it is horrible and I hate it so much.

Andy as usual does so much I feel useless most of the time, I try and do what I can, but it is minuscule in comparison to what he does, without him I would be totally lost, I just hope and prey that all this clears up and we can get back to some sort of normal, when that will be is anyone's guess, it has been 28 months since the pain started, so not long... (sarcasm)

thanks for reading, and sorry if I have depressed you too!